you are right where you need to be
Sometimes it feels a bit pretentious and disingenuous doing things I feel I have no place doing but I don't care, I am going to do my best, break a couple eggs, slaughter a couple cows and make my own way in my own life. I am so tired of being scared and I am scared of being tired. Everything I do feels like I do it for or because of someone else and I want to escape and break out. My greatest fears have always brought me my greatest returns and I figure I may as well lean into it. This page of all my writings and musings feels ridiculous to start but that is exactly why I feel I need to start. My fragments are random thoughts I have that may flourish into essays. My essays are meager, few and far between and up until this point in my life, mostly brought about by the forces of academia, and my dreams contain the more creative, less grounded things like maybe poetic or lyrical things, random musings and whatnot. A metaphorical "junk drawer" of writing, although depending on the reader the whole thing might be junk adjacent. Kudos for reading this far and thank you for your time. I will try and make my musings worthwhile but that's not really for me or you to judge.